I don't have many people I consider friend, if I call you "Friend" I am fiercly loyal, and I don't really expect the same, I don't hold people to the same high standard that I hold myself. With that being said though I do hold you to some type of standard and that is I need you to be brutally honest with me. Because lets be honest I FUCK UP A LOT, but I need people in my life who are brave enough to tell me I'm fucking up.
Of my few friends there are even less I confide in, I realize many of you have conflicting views on me and I have done all that I can to foster these views. I hide my true self from many people, I need to protect me from the world lest I become damged and thus no longer any good. (yup I think Highly of myself). Recently I've tried letting some people in, Ive told them things it took my closest friends years to find out, Ive given them glimpses into how I operate and how have I been repaid? Fucked Over... I realize that for most its not a big deal to let people know your true thoughts and feelings on things, but for me it's an incredibly big deal. If I share with you my thoughts or feelings its a sign of trust, because I know my thoughts and feelings are not necessarily those of the majority and in the end they are what make me, me so know that when I tell you my hopes, fears, dreams, true feelings that I am giving you all that is most important to me...
ok thats deep enough for right now...
